24 September 2010

*Face of Awe*

Last week, I woke up just as the sun was coming up. With my eyes still closed, I stretched, felt no pain, the soft warmth of my blanket and the little ball of fuzzy Thor heat at my side. Still with my eyes closed I smiled and curled around my puppy. He licked the tip of my nose, and I scrunched my face. He snuggled in and I turned my face towards the light I could feel coming through the window.

I smiled a little, opened my eyes, and screamed.

That's life for you; never quite what you expect.

My friend Aria was hovering about 6 inches over my face. I haven't seen her in- oooooh, about 3 years. I didn't know she was coming to town. Apparently, she arrived sometime in the middle of the night and somehow coerced my roommate into letting her in, and then into my bedroom where she could stalk my sleep.

She's such a creep. God, I love her. <3

It's about 1:15ish, and I'm tired. I have so much to do, but I'm so very very tired. In general, not just now.
I'm trying really hard to hold it together and joke about everything, but it's a strain. Everything's coming hot and heavy now, and I've only got so much oomph in me, and it's quickly being unsourced. I just need help. With everything. I just can't do it alone anymore- I'm way beyond my pride keeping me from admitting it. I need help.

please, God. help me. please.

I'm a little overwhelmed with everything, just trying to get by. To survive.

I'm glad Aria's here right now. I'm really glad I have Thor Chewbacca II. I'm really glad I have my friends. I'm really glad I have my God. I would be lost without them. <3

Thank you. For being there when you could, thank you.

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